What FYF meant to me.

On September 5th, I went to the Fuck Yeah Fest down in LA. It was held at the Los Angeles state historic park. All of the bands i had pretty much not heard of except for The Black Lips, Lightening Bolt & the comedians Tim & Eric. I wasn't supposed to go but after a long debate i ended buying my ticket the morning of it, & drove with my friends Sara & Steve to the festival. I didn't really know what to expect of it, since i had never really been to musical festival before that, besides EDC, but that's totally different from what FYF ended up being. It was a long miserable three hour wait to get in due to some unorganized mess up that happened with the promoters. that kind of got me in a bad mood & i was kind of bitchy for the first half of the day, and i just couldn't wait until it was time to go home. During my funk Sara & i walked around on our own and stopped at different stages to give each band there a listen. I actually ended up enjoying my time and heard a lot of great bands play live. Mika Miko, Japanther, Crystal Antlers, Telepathe, No Age were the bands i really liked listening to. I got to see The Black Lips play live, and see Tim & Eric play there spoof songs from their t.v. show like petite feet. Those two headliners had some part in helping me make my final decision to go. I'm really glad i did go. I think FYF was one of the funnest events i have been to so far. Music festivals are different from raves. Similar but different. I think i enjoy my time better at a music fest cause even though there is a lot going on just like there is at raves, i feel more at home. I realized too that there is so much good music out there, but its hard to come across it cause mainstream music is dominated by rap, pop & what others call rock. these bands don't get the exposure they deserve to, but at the same time i don't think these bands would want to go to mainstream music and publicity because they probably wouldn't be happy. they would have to change their style of their own music and be manipulated by the heads of major record companies. there music wouldn't be what it is and known for to their fan base and the hard effort they put towards it would be gone. I'm glad to be living in the time i do now, cause even though in the sixties the pioneers that ended up being mainstream music of that era were real musicians, who played songs from the soul, there is still a great number of bands that carry on the art & realness of music. Even though they are not well known or played on some popular radio station they're out there. You just have to keep your ear out for them. Music is the greatest gift. Without it, i don't know how people would survive the daily stress of the world.

Saturday Afternoon

tonight is nocturnal. i have a mixture of nervousness, excitement & anticipation running through my mind & body. idk what to expect of it, but from what i hear its supposed to be intense. i just hope i dont have a bad trip like i did at edc. i want the night to go smoothly and have a great time, but i always do, even if a little speed bump happens along the way. i just need to figure out what to wear. last night i made candies but not as much as i wanted too, but ill give the bracelets to the two girls i trust the most<3

today i woke up and felt so lazy which i hate, but i went to the pool to swim around. nothing is like the feeling you have when you're in the water feeling so free & allowing your body to move any way you want. it definitely helped to give me some energy and the water was so nice & cold. it felt great to be in the water, especially since its so hot outside. sometimes i think i was meant to be born a fish.

Between the Bars.

i never really realized how much i love elliott smith's song between the bars. its definately one of the songs i listen to to clear my head. he sings the words that ive been thinking or feeling, but cant say myself. i cant help but shed a few tears to it cause it just has that strong of an affect. especially when i hear my favorite verse from it. "People you've been before that you dont want around anymore, they push and shove and wont bend to your will, ill keep them still."

For once..

For once in my life i just wish for everything to be perfect. it seems when im in a good place in my life & where everything is going smoothly, something always prevents it from being its full potential of happiness. i love my friends, i adore my bestfriend, but something or someone doesnt want for me to be happy and always finds some way to make me feel insecure or not want to go out and hang out with everyone.  i hate fake girls, attention seeking girls, and bitchy ones as well.  cant people ever grow up and start acting their age? i swear, im supposed to be out of high school but how a certain bitch acts it feels like i have gone back to those days & its horrible :( i just hope someday soon everything will be right with the world where i dont have to feel so up & down, like im on some kind of roller coaster.

San Diego.

hopefully by next fall i can go to san diego state and finally move away from here and finally live on my own in one of my favorite cities. SD♥

Anticipiation....

i can't wait to see this. Coco before Chanel with Audrey Tautou.  I think this will be a roll she'll be perfect in, i already see her as a modern day Audrey Hepburn.  And she's just perfect to play Coco Chanel.  The fashion icon herself.  :D

carpe diem

today im going to be productive. clean the house. do my homework. clean out my car. and look for a new job.

Wal-greens Free

for the next week i dont have to go to work!

hahaha i love it, hopefully my job hunt will go good

& i can finally say bye-bye Wal-greenss

Into the Wild.

"alexander, older brother, set out for a great adventure"

into the wild by arcade fire, is stuck in my head and i keep on listening to it nonstop!

makes me want to out on an adventure.

the next four weeks...

will be tough. idk how ill survive without my best friend.  the boy who excites me & fills my life with new adventures. some people just don't undersand, but its hard to be away from someone so close, he makes me the happiest girl when im with him.  & seriously time slows down & nothing else matters when im with him.  the bright side is that i can take some time for myself & same for him.  everything will be better in the end.  after all absence makes the heart grow fonder<3

YeahYeahYeahs

now that i have a minute, i can post about how amazing the yeahyeahyeahs were at the fox theater in Pomona. before they came out you could feel the excitement building up within the audience and the anticipation for them to finally come on the stage.  their opening band was yacht, a band i never heard before that night and they were really good. it consisted of a guy and girl duo, Jona & Claire.  Jona jumped into the audience and danced with them while performing.  And during their closing song Claire came down to the audience and looked into everyones eyes and placed her hand on the heads of a few concert goers.  i am lucky to say that i was one of them.  their performance was great.  but nothing could top the yeahyeahyeahs.  they opened with heads will roll which got the crowd jumping. there wasn't even enough room to dance, people from the back were pushing forward causing all of us in the front to be crammed up next to each other like sardines.  Miss Karen O looked so cute in the outfit she was wearing and was all over the stage, it was hard to get a good snapshot of her.  they closed with cheated hearts where she came down to the audience and was only two feet away from me and handed my friend Monica the microphone.  Monica was so star struck she forgot to say something in the mic.  it was a great surprise to have her be so close.  after this me and Mon couldn't believe it.  it felt so unreal.  they came back out with an encore performance, and started with y control, which i went crazy for and everyone was jumping around. They also did an acoustic version of maps which was amazing cause throughout the whole show the audience would be singing with Karen but for maps everyone was in complete silence where all we heard was her lovely voice and and Nick Zinner playing the guitar.  it was definitely a great show, i wish i could go back and experience it over & over again.

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