morning

"you may only be a person in this world, but for someone you're the world"-anonymous

haha my mom was reading a bunch of quotes this morning and this was the only one i
really liked :) it's cute.

fullerton college

oh how i miss school. being on winter vacation is great & i definitely needed a vacation after four long months of hard classes, but i do miss it. school gives me time to myself. i put hard focus on my classes and i learn a lot of things that help me be more insightful. i can't wait for january 19th to roll around. until then i'll enjoy my leisure.

2009 picture blog

the getty

of montreal show at the glass house

a very fun night in santa monica

ashley's visits to CA

grandpa's big racing day

meeting mike napoli

many angel games during the summer

OC Fair

visit to catalina

desert drives

EDC

yeah yeah yeah's show

random drive to vegas

FYF Fest

nocturnal

crazy halloween

pixies show in hollywood

disneyland birthday

christmas party

end of a year

there's only a couple of days left of the year 2009 and i honestly can't believe how fast it went by. i'm kind of sad that it's ending. even though this year was hectic, i can honestly say that i have grown up a lot and learned a lot more about myself this year then any other year. i completed my first year of college and celebrated my one year anniversery working at wal-greens. i can't even count how many concerts/shows i went to, but they were all great and each one was special to me in their own way. i'm happy that this year mitchell and i became such great friends. we don't always get along but he is definitely my best friend and having him in life helped me grow up and get some life experiences that i never thought would happen to me. i'm also happy that on christmas i got the best gift ever, a puppy! he's adorable. it's barely been a week since i've had him but he is so precious to me and puts me in the best mood. i've also realized how important my friends and family are to me. and that know matter what happens, good or bad, the people who truly care will be the for you no matter what. i'm very sad that this year i had to say good-bye to my great grandma ruby. she passed away earlier this month and it was the saddest day of my life. i know it was her time and that grandparents aren't around forever but she was in my life for 20 years and out of all the people i've known who passed away she was the closet to me. i'll miss all those visits to her house in chino, her voice and her hugs<3 she was a beautiful woman and a hero to me. this year has brought many other changes for me to personal to share on here. but i couldn't let 2009 go with out looking back at a few things that meant a lot to me<3

flawless...

lauryn hill. i love her voice, i could listen to it all day. she is my favorite female hip-hop artist and my opinion the queen of the genre. i just love her cover of "can't take my eyes off of you." it's so good and she's so beautiful<3

Family History...

it's a beautiful thing.

my Great Grandma and Grandpa, 1937

this morning my Great Grandma Ruby passed away. she was 91 years old. i feel very honored that i had her in my life for 20 years. not many people can say they had a great grandma who lived to be 91 years old. she was one of the strongest women i ever knew and i am very honored to say that i was one of her great grandchildren. she lived a very good life filled with many people who loved her very much and will always cherish the visits to her house in Chino. my grandma only had one love of her life and that was my great grandpa berry reyburn. they got married when she was 19 and he was 23. they were happily married for 63 years. she took care of him until the day he died. their love and marriage is something i definitely look up to and admire, it's the greatest love story ever told. and i know they are both in a better place. im going to miss her so much. RIP Grandma i love you♥

Happiest place on earth...

i love disneyland. i seriously hope i don't grow up to be one of those adults who end up complaining about it & never want to go. for my 20th birthday last monday my friend stephanie and i celebrated there. it was definitely a perfect place to spend my birthday cause all i felt was happiness and excitement, a great way to say hello to the 20's and good bye to teen years. the atmosphere, the music, the rides, the shows all the characters around the park, and the bright lights when they first ago on at dark. i could have seriously spent the whole day there, which we pretty much did. disneyland is one of the places where i always feel like a kid again with no worries except which ride to go on next. and i think all of us need to feel like kids again cause in the hustle and bustle of today we forget to enjoy ourselves, our true selves. :)

She's a Rainbow

i love the song "She's a Rainbow" by The Rolling Stones. such great melody and the lyrics are simply lovely. i feel so blissful when i listen to it. definitely puts me in a great mood<3

ugly

the ugliest feeling in this world is loneliness. if i had the power to get rid of any emotion or feeling it would be that one. its worse then feeling sad cause when you feel alone all the thoughts you never want to look back on come back to your mind and you have an internal war with yourself. it seems this feeling is increasing with each passing day for me, and i dont know why. i hate it so much. i guess ill have to let it pass or try to see the positive things that are going on around me. it sounds a lot easier then it really is. sometimes negativity seems easier to believe.

monday

it was a really good day today. i cant believe it's already 1:14 tuesday morning its time to go to bed soon! but before i do i feel like sharing my day with the world. this morning after i woke up i studied, did my homework, cleaned up around the house, which my mom really appreciated, and later in the day i hung out with monica. we got vietnamese food, went to the mall to buy sara a birthday gift, and came back to my house and had a nice relaxing night. i bought sara beck's modern guilt album on vinyl which i hope she likes because she adores beck and i thought it would be a perfect gift for her. im looking forward to celebrating her birthday with her tomorrow. :) when monica and i came back to my house we had some one on one time and just talked for hours which i love to do with her. we messed around on my macbook and after she left i watched some t.v. with my mom. i also got to talk to mitchell on the phone and we had a really nice talk, im glad he's my best friend . i have school tomorrow which i cant wait to get over with so i can have fun with sara for her birthday at the cantina in fullerton for taco tuesday! im so grateful for my friends and my family, they're both wonderful<333

working girl...

got to pay the bills!

im finally getting more hours at work so i won't be so broke anymore. i just wish they didn't make me work ALL weekends thats not fair what so ever. i have all this free time during the week which, i donate homework, but when it comes to weekends all i do is work, and it deprives me from spending time with my dad and visiting my great grandma, who is about to pass away, with my sister and mom. plus i always seem to have the most amount of homework on the weekends so i stay up late working on it when i get off from closing. i just wish they were more fair with hours. i am happy though that im back to working three days instead of just two, cause even though that's not much, it's a hundred more dollars a week, so cheers to that! :)

i also find myself not taking anymore bull shit from customers. i used to take things so personal when customers would get frustrated with me for something not ringing up right or other flaws that come in the business of retail. now when someone acts moody to me i just give it right back to them. im not saying i become a bitch im just not as friendly as i would be with nice customers. and if they have a problem with it so what? i give great customer service just as long as the person gives me the respect i give them. just because im a service clerk doesnt mean im anyones slave or some rug for someone to step on. realizing this helps me think that i can apply this to my everyday life, sticking up for myself more and voicing my opinions without feeling sorry for ever thinking or saying them.

last night

so last night i saw the pixies. it was a good show all though we were all the way in the back and i couldn't see the band. i would either have to jump around or stand on my tip toes to get a glimpse of them. but it was great to here them play live and play the whole doolittle album. they didnt play caribou during their encore they did play "something against you" which is one of my favorite songs by them. and of course they played "where is my mind?"

Finally...

tonight i am seeing the pixies at the hollywood palladium! :D i can't wait for this day to fly by and i plan to dance the night away. it really seems like it has taken forever for this day to come but it's finally here!

D'yer Mak'er..

by led zeppelin=great!

The Shining

another great stanley kubrick film to add to my list. i dont think any other movie has given me the chills like the shining did. the music score is what helps add to the suspense of the movie. and jack nicholson really does a good job at playing such a demented character. ill probably never have the courage to watch it again, but i really did like it. Great Film!

Daniel Johnston

on saturday night i had the great joy of seeing Daniel Johnston at The Music Box in LA. I loved seeing him preform live and it was a fun night. especially when he played a cover of "you got to hide your love away" and the whole audience sang along when it was time for the lyrics "Hey! you gotta hide you love away" to be sung. he closed with "True Love Will Find You in the End" and it was a great end to his performance. it is a night ill never forget<333

train stations

i really miss taking the train to school. i used to love just sitting up against the window and looking out to all the different scenery it would pass by. walking up&down harbor looking in the shops while waitng for the train to arrive. i really love downtown fullerton. the old fox movie theater. the cute little shops. drinking chai tea at starbucks. going into the record store and seeing the owner's collection. i used to people watch a lot at the train station. little kids running around, business men & women with their suits & briefcases. hearing the heels of women's shoes clack against the pavement. it's probably one of the few places where i feel myself. no worries cross my mind. it's just me, my ipod, and the many other people who are waiting to go to their destination.

best ending.

Pulp Fiction is probably when of the greatest movies of all time. it is definitely one of Quentin Tarantino's masterpieces. and in my opinion no other movie has a better ending then pulp fiction. especially the great speech Samuel l. Jackson's character gives. No other actor could have done a better job then he did. must watch....

the perks of being a wallflower

this week i read one of my favorite books, the perks of being a wallflower, and im very glad i did. i first read it when i was a sophomore in high school and i am now a sophomore in college. so it has been exactly four years since i have first read it. i think ive grown up a lot since i first read it and experienced many of the same things charlie experienced so i could relate a lot better to the things he described. i love how an author can somehow make you feel that somebody out there understands. that he understands about the hard things of growing up and creates a great story for many other kids/people who are also having a hard time to have something to relate to. i love this book!

Cat Power

i really love listening to cat power. Their songs are so soothing and get deep inside my emotions. Listening to Chan Marshall's voice relaxes me and gives me chills. i fall asleep to their music every night. "Myra Lee" is my favorite album of theirs and the songs "ice water", "great expectations" and "rockets" i could listen to over and over again. i can't imagine how great it would be to see them live!

i always wonder

everytime i watch the movie Selena i always wonder how successful she could've been today or what she would've been like. i remember being 5 years old and singing along to her songs and not knowing what death was yet or that she had even passed away. she had lots of talent, and i still look up to her as one of my heroes<3

Caribou...

is my favorite Pixies song. it seems every playlist i make on my ipod i put this song on there. in my opinion Caribou is their best song. I could listen to it all day.

"this human from, where i was born, i now repent" great lyrics ^_^

adorable.

its so crazy to think how close i was to owning a puppy. i still want one badly but i have a feeling thats not going to happen for a while. due to money issues and the fact that my mom keeps changing her mind on the matter :/

one of these could've been mine

zombieland

last night i saw zombieland with a few friends. it wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. the movie was very funny and entertaining. i must admit i was not expecting as much graphic images as it ended up having, like the zombies and all their goo dripping from their faces and bodies. the part that really made me cringe was in the beginning when Jesse Eisenberg's character is being chased by a girl zombie and while trying to stop her you see her ankle bone pop out, that made me squirm. what i really liked was how Bill Murray played a little cameo part. i thought that was pretty cool of him. Woody Harrelson definitely was the star of the movie, he plays such a funny character, and it totally fits him. i think zombieland is good movie to see if you want to see a movie that has action, humor and to give you a good scare.

What FYF meant to me.

On September 5th, I went to the Fuck Yeah Fest down in LA. It was held at the Los Angeles state historic park. All of the bands i had pretty much not heard of except for The Black Lips, Lightening Bolt & the comedians Tim & Eric. I wasn't supposed to go but after a long debate i ended buying my ticket the morning of it, & drove with my friends Sara & Steve to the festival. I didn't really know what to expect of it, since i had never really been to musical festival before that, besides EDC, but that's totally different from what FYF ended up being. It was a long miserable three hour wait to get in due to some unorganized mess up that happened with the promoters. that kind of got me in a bad mood & i was kind of bitchy for the first half of the day, and i just couldn't wait until it was time to go home. During my funk Sara & i walked around on our own and stopped at different stages to give each band there a listen. I actually ended up enjoying my time and heard a lot of great bands play live. Mika Miko, Japanther, Crystal Antlers, Telepathe, No Age were the bands i really liked listening to. I got to see The Black Lips play live, and see Tim & Eric play there spoof songs from their t.v. show like petite feet. Those two headliners had some part in helping me make my final decision to go. I'm really glad i did go. I think FYF was one of the funnest events i have been to so far. Music festivals are different from raves. Similar but different. I think i enjoy my time better at a music fest cause even though there is a lot going on just like there is at raves, i feel more at home. I realized too that there is so much good music out there, but its hard to come across it cause mainstream music is dominated by rap, pop & what others call rock. these bands don't get the exposure they deserve to, but at the same time i don't think these bands would want to go to mainstream music and publicity because they probably wouldn't be happy. they would have to change their style of their own music and be manipulated by the heads of major record companies. there music wouldn't be what it is and known for to their fan base and the hard effort they put towards it would be gone. I'm glad to be living in the time i do now, cause even though in the sixties the pioneers that ended up being mainstream music of that era were real musicians, who played songs from the soul, there is still a great number of bands that carry on the art & realness of music. Even though they are not well known or played on some popular radio station they're out there. You just have to keep your ear out for them. Music is the greatest gift. Without it, i don't know how people would survive the daily stress of the world.

Saturday Afternoon

tonight is nocturnal. i have a mixture of nervousness, excitement & anticipation running through my mind & body. idk what to expect of it, but from what i hear its supposed to be intense. i just hope i dont have a bad trip like i did at edc. i want the night to go smoothly and have a great time, but i always do, even if a little speed bump happens along the way. i just need to figure out what to wear. last night i made candies but not as much as i wanted too, but ill give the bracelets to the two girls i trust the most<3

today i woke up and felt so lazy which i hate, but i went to the pool to swim around. nothing is like the feeling you have when you're in the water feeling so free & allowing your body to move any way you want. it definitely helped to give me some energy and the water was so nice & cold. it felt great to be in the water, especially since its so hot outside. sometimes i think i was meant to be born a fish.

Between the Bars.

i never really realized how much i love elliott smith's song between the bars. its definately one of the songs i listen to to clear my head. he sings the words that ive been thinking or feeling, but cant say myself. i cant help but shed a few tears to it cause it just has that strong of an affect. especially when i hear my favorite verse from it. "People you've been before that you dont want around anymore, they push and shove and wont bend to your will, ill keep them still."

For once..

For once in my life i just wish for everything to be perfect. it seems when im in a good place in my life & where everything is going smoothly, something always prevents it from being its full potential of happiness. i love my friends, i adore my bestfriend, but something or someone doesnt want for me to be happy and always finds some way to make me feel insecure or not want to go out and hang out with everyone.  i hate fake girls, attention seeking girls, and bitchy ones as well.  cant people ever grow up and start acting their age? i swear, im supposed to be out of high school but how a certain bitch acts it feels like i have gone back to those days & its horrible :( i just hope someday soon everything will be right with the world where i dont have to feel so up & down, like im on some kind of roller coaster.

San Diego.

hopefully by next fall i can go to san diego state and finally move away from here and finally live on my own in one of my favorite cities. SD♥

Anticipiation....

i can't wait to see this. Coco before Chanel with Audrey Tautou.  I think this will be a roll she'll be perfect in, i already see her as a modern day Audrey Hepburn.  And she's just perfect to play Coco Chanel.  The fashion icon herself.  :D

carpe diem

today im going to be productive. clean the house. do my homework. clean out my car. and look for a new job.

Wal-greens Free

for the next week i dont have to go to work!

hahaha i love it, hopefully my job hunt will go good

& i can finally say bye-bye Wal-greenss

Into the Wild.

"alexander, older brother, set out for a great adventure"

into the wild by arcade fire, is stuck in my head and i keep on listening to it nonstop!

makes me want to out on an adventure.

the next four weeks...

will be tough. idk how ill survive without my best friend.  the boy who excites me & fills my life with new adventures. some people just don't undersand, but its hard to be away from someone so close, he makes me the happiest girl when im with him.  & seriously time slows down & nothing else matters when im with him.  the bright side is that i can take some time for myself & same for him.  everything will be better in the end.  after all absence makes the heart grow fonder<3

YeahYeahYeahs

now that i have a minute, i can post about how amazing the yeahyeahyeahs were at the fox theater in Pomona. before they came out you could feel the excitement building up within the audience and the anticipation for them to finally come on the stage.  their opening band was yacht, a band i never heard before that night and they were really good. it consisted of a guy and girl duo, Jona & Claire.  Jona jumped into the audience and danced with them while performing.  And during their closing song Claire came down to the audience and looked into everyones eyes and placed her hand on the heads of a few concert goers.  i am lucky to say that i was one of them.  their performance was great.  but nothing could top the yeahyeahyeahs.  they opened with heads will roll which got the crowd jumping. there wasn't even enough room to dance, people from the back were pushing forward causing all of us in the front to be crammed up next to each other like sardines.  Miss Karen O looked so cute in the outfit she was wearing and was all over the stage, it was hard to get a good snapshot of her.  they closed with cheated hearts where she came down to the audience and was only two feet away from me and handed my friend Monica the microphone.  Monica was so star struck she forgot to say something in the mic.  it was a great surprise to have her be so close.  after this me and Mon couldn't believe it.  it felt so unreal.  they came back out with an encore performance, and started with y control, which i went crazy for and everyone was jumping around. They also did an acoustic version of maps which was amazing cause throughout the whole show the audience would be singing with Karen but for maps everyone was in complete silence where all we heard was her lovely voice and and Nick Zinner playing the guitar.  it was definitely a great show, i wish i could go back and experience it over & over again.

<3333