where are the months going?

today, while writing down the date for an assignment in my Nutrition class, it hit me really hard that November is almost here. My birthday, thanksgiving and Christmas are not too far from us now. then i started thinking, "where did october go?"

this year has gone by so fast, faster than i ever realized it. here we are almost to the end of the year and I remember the start if it like yesterday. Every year this seems to keep happening where the months go by and one day it just really hits me. I don't have a fear of growing up, i mean i think we all do, but I'm looking forward to move on with my life. I just don't want it to move at a pace where I feel like I want to scream, "WHERE DID MY LIFE GO?" & thats what it kind of feels like. Everyone knows time flies, I just think it flies too fast. Slow down please!

the stresses of school & money are trying to...

crumble my sanity!

I don't think I have ever had such a hard work load before. I love school. Getting myself educated for a better understanding of the different subjects that interest me is definitely a big priority for me, but god I've never been under so much academic stress. It seems that all my teachers want in depth research papers and projects due at the same time and some are moving too fast of a pace that I can't handle. My classes are great but it just seems that due to all these assignments and exams coming up I feel like I'm being pulled down under a strong ocean tide and will soon give in and be completely under the water. I need to work on time management & thank goodness I quit my job at Wal-greens. I don't think they could have ever understood the constant headaches I am suffering through. Hopefully I can find a job that will understand being a student is a number one priority for me and that when its needed I need time for my studies. Because if school isn't stressful enough, being jobless and having no money is another basket of worries I don't want.

Nature talks...

Birthday Wish List....

in one month and 13 days I'll be turning 21 & I want one of these beauties, a Diana Holga Film Camera, so I can get back into the hobby of taking film pictures

Click it, Read it, Listen!

click on the link below to listen to Best Coast's debut album, "Crazy For You" which is coming out July 27th!!!! Reading the interview with Bethany made me love her more, and it seems she's a lot like me in some ways. Her songs aren't just good songs for me to dance along mindlessly to, they're speaking for me as well as putting words to the many mixed up emotions I feel through my daily life. Thank you Bethany!

http://blog.urbanoutfitters.com/features/best_coast

Ring Ring

Loving this sweet sounding song from Sleigh Bells. Much more mellow than other songs like "Crown on the Ground" & "Tell 'em." I haven't had an oppurtunity to buy their debut album "Treats" that was released in May, but I am looking forward to buying it & enjoying their music even more.

"Ring, ring call them up, tell them about the new trends."

A New Start

Today is the beginning of a new road that I will start to follow. Last Tuesday I was hit by a car after I saw Best Coast at the Echoplex. I'm still working on my post about it. There is just so many things I want to share and I don't think it's ready to be published yet. After about a week of feeling sorry for myself today will be different. I've started it different already by not waking up at noon and instead at 8 in the morning, a very productive hour. Being home has opened my eyes to new things and realizations I've never came to before. I'm going to start living more and not let the world pass me by. I will also be cautious. Doing all the fun things a girl my age should be doing to have fun but also balancing some responsibility. Also I am desperate for a new job, and I will find one no matter how many places I apply to. Hopefully one will come through. I need a new job cause I believe mine is a big reason for my unhappiness and I want everything that has been dragging me down to be cut from my life. I will not let myself down anymore. Carpe Diem!