She's a Rainbow

i love the song "She's a Rainbow" by The Rolling Stones. such great melody and the lyrics are simply lovely. i feel so blissful when i listen to it. definitely puts me in a great mood<3

ugly

the ugliest feeling in this world is loneliness. if i had the power to get rid of any emotion or feeling it would be that one. its worse then feeling sad cause when you feel alone all the thoughts you never want to look back on come back to your mind and you have an internal war with yourself. it seems this feeling is increasing with each passing day for me, and i dont know why. i hate it so much. i guess ill have to let it pass or try to see the positive things that are going on around me. it sounds a lot easier then it really is. sometimes negativity seems easier to believe.

monday

it was a really good day today. i cant believe it's already 1:14 tuesday morning its time to go to bed soon! but before i do i feel like sharing my day with the world. this morning after i woke up i studied, did my homework, cleaned up around the house, which my mom really appreciated, and later in the day i hung out with monica. we got vietnamese food, went to the mall to buy sara a birthday gift, and came back to my house and had a nice relaxing night. i bought sara beck's modern guilt album on vinyl which i hope she likes because she adores beck and i thought it would be a perfect gift for her. im looking forward to celebrating her birthday with her tomorrow. :) when monica and i came back to my house we had some one on one time and just talked for hours which i love to do with her. we messed around on my macbook and after she left i watched some t.v. with my mom. i also got to talk to mitchell on the phone and we had a really nice talk, im glad he's my best friend . i have school tomorrow which i cant wait to get over with so i can have fun with sara for her birthday at the cantina in fullerton for taco tuesday! im so grateful for my friends and my family, they're both wonderful<333

working girl...

got to pay the bills!

im finally getting more hours at work so i won't be so broke anymore. i just wish they didn't make me work ALL weekends thats not fair what so ever. i have all this free time during the week which, i donate homework, but when it comes to weekends all i do is work, and it deprives me from spending time with my dad and visiting my great grandma, who is about to pass away, with my sister and mom. plus i always seem to have the most amount of homework on the weekends so i stay up late working on it when i get off from closing. i just wish they were more fair with hours. i am happy though that im back to working three days instead of just two, cause even though that's not much, it's a hundred more dollars a week, so cheers to that! :)

i also find myself not taking anymore bull shit from customers. i used to take things so personal when customers would get frustrated with me for something not ringing up right or other flaws that come in the business of retail. now when someone acts moody to me i just give it right back to them. im not saying i become a bitch im just not as friendly as i would be with nice customers. and if they have a problem with it so what? i give great customer service just as long as the person gives me the respect i give them. just because im a service clerk doesnt mean im anyones slave or some rug for someone to step on. realizing this helps me think that i can apply this to my everyday life, sticking up for myself more and voicing my opinions without feeling sorry for ever thinking or saying them.

last night

so last night i saw the pixies. it was a good show all though we were all the way in the back and i couldn't see the band. i would either have to jump around or stand on my tip toes to get a glimpse of them. but it was great to here them play live and play the whole doolittle album. they didnt play caribou during their encore they did play "something against you" which is one of my favorite songs by them. and of course they played "where is my mind?"

Finally...

tonight i am seeing the pixies at the hollywood palladium! :D i can't wait for this day to fly by and i plan to dance the night away. it really seems like it has taken forever for this day to come but it's finally here!

D'yer Mak'er..

by led zeppelin=great!